high school

Planning and God’s timing

Most of those who know me know that I write everything down on my planner. I can’t live without it and I feel lost when I leave it at home.

When I graduated high school in 2009, I sat down during the summer before college and planned out my life for the next two years. I worked hard, graduated on time and figured I’d do the same at UCF. I’ve worked hard, but I’m behind on classes because of my past internships so instead of graduating in May, I’ll be graduating in December, God-willing.

[Quick update: I didn’t get the St. Petersburg Times summer internship that I had applied for. I wrote back to Nancy Waclawek, the Director of Corporate Giving, as well as Drew Harwell, a reporter there, and they both told me that I needed more breaking news experience. It was pretty saddening but I moved on.]

Now that I look back, I thank God that I didn’t get the Orlando Sentinel internship or the St. Petersburg Times internship because it wouldn’t have led me to Feeding Children Everywhere. I was taking social media classes while I was a social media intern there and I feel like these things went hand-in-hand.

I was recently offered a position there as a communications coordinator and I took it. I had been praying about job offers because I was so unsure about my stalled “career.” What was I going to do when I graduated? I had a small panic attack during the winter break and I was constantly anxious about my future. Thankfully, I got the answer to my prayers a month into my internship. They said that I worked hard and I made myself invaluable to them. Now I get paid to do something that I love (the internship was unpaid, for those of you who keep Google’ing if its paid or not)!

It’s just really funny that to me that I planned out my life at UCF and things didn’t go the way I wanted to. Then I planned out getting these internships and building my portfolio but that didn’t happen. Then I finally decided to let go, keep praying and focus on being the best that I can be. God works in mysterious ways so before questioning his timing, just let it be. Something good will work itself out.

Habbakuk 2:3 reads, “For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” God won’t make you wait for something that will suck. He is just waiting for the right moment to give you His gift.

Anyway, I’m really thankful for my new position at Feeding Children Everywhere and even though I just started there and I may feel overwhelmed by certain projects, I know that I can put all my trust in the Lord.